I'm afraid I won't be able to make any friends and become super lonely :(
GULP! O_o
AND I MISS ALL YOU DARLINGS BACK HOMEE LIKE MAADDD!!
It felt awesome to have been able to Skype with Sonia and Andrew already. Oh, and Ju being Son's neighbour, rushed over while I was talking to Son and I managed to chat up with her too!
I'm waiting for youuuu, Jeaaaannn!!
And Brian, please get Skype. You have a Mac. You got webcam and mic etc all already, okayyy. And is that thingy-thing I asked you to help me do ready already??
Honestly, technology is freaking awesome. Makes me feel like I'm chatting right beside Son. It was fun to show her around the house I live in which is great by the way!
Staying with my Mom's bestie's family makes me feel so fortunate and really comfortable!
There's everything I need!
Plus, I love my room. It feels like my old one except there's no air-conditioning because the weather outside is super awesome! It's pretty cold (about 9-10 degrees) even though it's spring but when summer comes, the perfect weather!
Awesome.
The not so awesome part?
My Uni orientation starts THIS FRIDAY!!
I mean, how lamo is that, people.
I would've barely recovered from my jet lag and I have to go Uni already!!
Best yet, my classes start on Monday! Whoopee-doo.
Well, I hope Jason will bring me for a good weekend out! Although, I doubt I can go out very late seeing as both Papa and Mama are still here to watch over me.
Which I am incredibly grateful for!!
Grocery shopping is fun when you don't have to pay for it.
SIGH!! (It's a happy + sad one)
Anyway, anyway...
I made TWO movie slide-show thingy of the Four of us!
The first one is our younger selves; from when we met each other in year 2001 until our 2006!
Check it out;
The Four of Us - Year 2001 through 2006 -
And the more au courant pictures of the us!
The Four of Us - Year 2007 and 2008 -
We have a ga-drillion pictures so I had to split it up to two videos, haha.
Anyway, I will post up the video of Andrew and I in the next post!!
I hope he's doing fine :(
He was soooooo sweet and cute when we were Skype-ing.
"Cutieeeee, I can see youu...... but....... I can't touch you......"
And he'd be staring at me with his puppy dog eyes and it just makes me want to cry :((((
I know everyone's not very optimistic on the whole long-distance relationship thing but... well, I'll keep my fingers crossed:)
Alrighty, I'm off now!
Will start editing my pictures for the upcoming posts of "My Last Week in Malaysia!"
Of course, not literally my last week... just my last week for a very long time.
Anyhow!!
Good Night, Everyone! (Oh, wait. It's smack in the middle of the afternoon now for Malaysia... oh, well!)
I'm going to be leaving so many people I love back home and journey into the unfamiliar.
......
I am going to miss them so badly...
......
Just got home from my farewell which was held together with Aaron's surprise Birthday.
Honestly. I feel so incredibly grateful to have such awesome, wonderful friends.
You know who you are.
I can't imagine having any circle of friends that could be better or even half as great as the ones I have. From the RI:86 to the RVNs to, of course, my girls.
They have done so much for me and have such kind hearts and such a wonderfully-natured presence that it just makes it so, so hard to leave home behind.
I'm just so afraid I'm going to be so, incredibly lonely when I'm there...
If I am, you guys are never going to hear the end of it. I will have super depressing posts after depressing posts :(
Gosh, honestly!
This feels surreal.
I have waited so long for this day to come but now that it has arrived, I just wished I had more time to spend with all the ones I hold so dearly in my heart.
I swear, if my parents weren't tagging along with me (advantages of being the youngest), I'd be in some major depression mode.
Sigh...
Sigh...
SIGH...
Okay, okay. I should stop depressing you guys with my sighs.
I think I had better get some shut-eye.
And sorry for abandoning my blog.
I just have zero time to upkeep it right now. Spending all the spare time I have gluing myself to all my darlings.
However!
Once I'm over there and have adjusted, boy, do I have a PILE to update!
Well, I guess that's it then.
Farewell, my dear friends, I'll be back before you know it. (and hopefully before I know it too)
Loving all of you soooo much, appreciating every inch of memory I have in my heart constantly, and about to miss you all madly, Miss Wishful.
Speedy Updates: Sze Ming's Bday, Dinner with Joh, 2 YEARS!!, Delicious, Andrew's Apology, Hero is a ManU Fan, Puppet Show, Intercom Class
Sunday, April 20, 2008
I decided to approve all the comments on my previous- half embarrassing yet completely outraged- post because..
GEE! You all are just so nice and supporting and have honestly made me feel a whole lot better with your comments! :)
Thanks a lot, you all.
Seriously, honestly, truthfully.. your comments made me feel a zillion, trillion times better.
I guess a thoughtful message goes a long way, doesn't it?
And now!
Since I've accomplished my study areas for today, I shall reward myself with this spare time in blogging!
Plus, I don't want to pile up my updates far too much until I get sooo lazy to update and won't even do it at all so better do it now.
So first up, Sze Ming's Birthday Celebration @ Red Box, The Curve (2nd of April, 2008)
Booked one of the largest room @ Red Box, Curve. Even has a PS2! Not bad.
Our very own Jay Chou. Emo to the max. (I can't recall when was the last time I used the term "to the max" haha! Standard 5 maybe??)
All pals.
?#$^$@!!*^$!!
Bit TOO close for comfort, I should think!
Jeez, anyone ELSE wanna join?
Brian; doin' his thang and Shan; filling up his thang.
I honestly didn't realize they were posing with me while I was singing!
Good try, Koks. Good try. Lol ;)
Huff and puff.
Didn't take many pictures that night. In fact, I think out of all those pics, I only took like 2 or something. Wasn't so much in the mood for pictures that day actually.
Nevertheless,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SZE MING!!
I know for a fact it's not too late since you celebrated 2 weeks earlier because you had to leave for Langkawi.
Hope you're doing all right, cough, Edison, cough. (Even after the whole XXX incident, dude still insists he looks like Edison...)
Dinner with Joh @ Las Caristas (8th of April, 2008)
Actually, I'm not too sure if the restaurant is called that but... well, hope it's right!
Whatever it is, it's some kick butt Mexican restaurant!!
Me and Joh!
Our complimentary Chips and Dip! No, it ain't Nachos. We already asked.
Our appetizer; Mussel Soup. Ohhhh... this is sooooo good and yummy. And spicy too! Really interesting flavor. My mouth's watering just recalling how it tasted.
Some Snow Fish thingy. This wasn't too shabby. I wouldn't say it was the best but the fish is very tender. I'm not a fan of their sauce though. Tastes... very... different. It says mushroom sauce but... no, not really.
Fajitas!!
The dressing.
It was all very good.
Certainly cheered me up having food like that rest in my tummy.
And thus, we celebrated this joyous event with the traditional dinner and movie.
We didn't feel like going all out and about and felt the best way to celebrate is to stick to our routine.
Plus, we were kinda low on $$$ from over-spending.
Dinner @ Sakae Sushi, The Curve (10th April, 2008)
Pats ourselves on the back!
Our favorite sushis:
Mine; Sake Salmon. Can never ever get tired of this thing.
His; Tamago. Technically, he prefers having the Kani Salad but Sakae Sushi doesn't make any of those, poor thing.
His; Chicken Teriyaki Don. I've no idea when exactly he'll get tired of this dish.
Mine; Beef Udon. Jean introduced this to me and JEEZ, this thing is addictive like you wouldn't know it! Soup's really tasty!
And we ended out night with the movie, Definitely Maybe.
That movie was great! I loved every bit of it. Sucker for chick-romantic-comedy-flicks with interestingly happy endings!
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Brunch with the Girlies @ Delicious, Bangsar (11th of April, 2008)
I actually.. didn't take any other picture during this outing except these two pictures of the pastries Sonzy and I shared.
But well, I just thought I did such an awesome job with the photography that I should just post it up anyway!
Lemon Meringue Pie. Far too sweet for my liking. Looks much better than it tastes; I'd say!
The Berrylicious Chocolate Pavlova. Such an odd assortment of um... fruits, ice cream and crunchy outer layer and sticky chocolate inside... but it's very interesting and far less sweeter than the Lemon Meringue which made mixing the two pastries not so great. But alone, it's delish!
And just two... TWO days after we've patted our back on each other for doing such a good job this 2 whole years...
We decided to have the biggestest argument in history of histories! (well, after a long, long time that is).
But as always, Andrew would feel bad and be the man and DO THE RIGHT THING!
You know, apologize, promise he won't do it again, utter soothing words and sweet nothings later on... etc etc!
But who would've knew he'd drop by with such a delightful surprise :) Green Tea Haagen-Dazs! He bought the cookies and cream as well but that greedy boy decided to keep that one for himself.... ??? Don't ask me.
I'm satisfied with what I have anyway!
Great remedy for someone with a load of stress to deal with!
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- While dog hunting (Andrew was looking out to see if there were any Labrador puppies for sale... evidently, he wants to replace me with one so urm, yeah, I'm trying to help him out), I came across the cuuuutest (and cheapest too!) dog-T for RM15/= only!
So I went ahead and got it for Hero!
Hero is officially a Manchester United Fan!
Oh, there's, like, Liverpool also (no Chelsea or Arsenal though) but Brian would probably strangle Hero to death if he saw him wearing it and I'd much rather have Hero alive.
Not to mention that Alan, Guo Jin and Andrew are ALL... Man U Fans.
So cuuuuuuute!!
Sorry, but I've never dressed Hero in anything before because the price of those fancy dog clothing is just ridiculous.
The day of my 2 presentations and the performance are on this day!
My Puppet Show Performance @ Sunway University College (15th April, 2008)
We were the first of the 4 groups in my class to perform so pressure, pressure!!
Our play was titled: Malaysia "Boleh".
We decided to perform a mockery of Malaysians bad habits such as our famous "on the way, on the way" which depicts tardiness, bad public service (especially in restaurants), the bribery we cannot live without (and neither can the police), and finally, the wonderful world of rubbish we live in! Literally on littering.
We had more ideas (snatch theft, disgusting upkeep of public toilets, mat rempits etc) but the performance only had a time frame of 15 minutes so we couldn't include them in.
Anyhow... First scene: Tardiness. Okay, that's my character; Jill, the snow leopard. She's adorable but you can't really tell because she reflects so much light! Which my lecturer thoroughly disapproved :(
Second scene: Bad public service. The Panda, a.k.a Waitress, gives bad service to Jack, the tiger and his date, Jill.
Third scene: Bribery. The Horsey is the policemen.
Final scene: Littering. Jack finally drops Jill home and finds a load of rubbish outside the apartment (the black stuff beside the green apartment).
And yeah, that's about it. Our lecturer assures us that we won't get less than 16/20 so I think we're good!
Our performance was followed by 2 group skits and a one-man play.
I personally thought the one-man play was the best; other than my adorable puppet show! Hehe. Biased, I know.
However, all the performances were generally amusing and funny which was a good end to a lo-ong day (good thing it was all after my presentations so the load was all off by then).
And three days ago which was subsequently the last day of class in Sunway (for me... sniff), I came in just in time (I woke up late... very, very late) for a photo session for my Interpersonal Communications class! Guess my lecturer ;)
Ahhh!
It's all done.
Gosh, I've never blogged this many events in one post before.
An accomplishment! And just over 24 hours to Finals too!
I'm off for some midnight snacks and some good shut-eye.
In the midst of my preparation of my Finals, I take a quick break just to moderate my comments and I get hurled over by this particular comment by a... a...
There is not a single word to describe what this person can possibly be.
Normally, I could not care less with ridiculous comments by those "Anonymous" out there and if I'm being honest, I have only ever rejected 2 comments during this whole period of using the "Comment Moderation" thing.
But for the love of... HONESTLY.
I am so damn infuriated right now it's seriously not funny at all.
What the hell is wrong with this person?
What does he/she aim to get at by leaving a comment like that?
How dare... HOW DARE... that person challenge me in such a infantile and callous way?
"You didn't even go for his cremation, and you said you lost a friend."
Tell me, readers, have you ever... ever come across such an imprudent, insensitive, inconsiderate, utterly tactless, person like this?
Well, this is the first I've encountered and I am flabbergasted!
Whoever you are, YOU were obviously NOT there so how could YOU know if I were there or not?
Because, you complete and utter FOOL, if you WERE there... your puny brain would realize an image of me standing by his coffin in a picture AS PROOF to your mindless and ridiculous and mind-numbing STUPID ACCUSATIONS!!!
Look carefully, THINK carefully (if you even have the capacity of either ONE... I highly doubt of course), you would not have accused of such... such pathetic mockery.
You disgust me.
And its not even the issue if I was there or not, because whether I was there or not, he was a good friend to me and I needn't prove that to the world by broadcasting to the whole entire world that,
"Oh, I was there by his hospital bed!"
"Oh, I was there for the memorial service!"
"Oh, I was there for his cremation!"
FOR HEAVEN'S SAKE AND FOR THE SAKE OF THE POOR SOULS AROUND A PERSON LIKE YOU, find someone with your own brain capacity to fuck around with. (if you can even find someone thats THAT stupid, that is)
And before I leave you and your minuscule mind in a jumble of mess, here's my final reply to the first part of your comment (sorry, it will not be shown for personal purposes, but reading my reply, you ought to get the idea)...
As much as I love to complain and whine, my dear friend, maybe you should realize that I like dealing with my problems by letting it out. That doesn't mean I sit around and do nada about my problems. Because if I did, I wouldn't be scoring for my finals, I wouldn't be picking up my APPROVED STUDENT VISA (GOD, I can't even be happy about this for one day?), I wouldn't have done a more than decent job with my presentations and performance and I wouldn't feel like a complete, lifeless dumb ass like...
You.
And if your aim is to seriously piss me off and distract me from studying, you have thoroughly succeeded.
And if that makes you happy, you are nothing but a sick piece of shit.
Just for you to know, you pitiless idiot, if I ever find out who you are, you don't even want to know what I will do to you.
You can say anything about me... call me a bitch, call me a gold digger, call me double standard (now you know what comments I've been brushing off)... that I can deal. I don't need to prove to just an individual "anonymous" that I am not those things so long as the people most important to me know that I am not.
But with an accusation like that,
You have gone too far, dear friend.
Bet you are wallowing in your miserable amusement of succeeding in pissing off an innocent person.
You're sick.
Sick and pathetic.
To all my other readers, forgive my defensiveness and my inability to refrain myself from calling that rogue of an individual names. But that person (if you can even call it a person since I have my mind set that it should be an IT since it is more of a monster than a person really) just went too far.
(Note: Comments regarding this issue will not be published however, those who support me or have any goodwill words to say, I thank you in advance and to those who don't, well, can't blame you for thinking I might be slightly overreacting and slightly delirious but... well, let's just say I have my sensitive issues that I get extremely defensive over and this is one of them).
Its funny how even though I'm in the midst of a billion things going on right now, I am still able to blog, eh?
I guess this is just another way to let out the stress.
Let out your problems; and you'll feel lighter, right?
SIGH... (really, I just sighed)
First, before I continue on, let me warn you that this is going to be a long, dreary post so unless you want to share your sympathy on me or live off my frustration/distress/atrabiliousness so you might feel better knowing your life right now sucks less than mine or you're just plain bored out of your mind...
Here goes.
How would you feel if you had all these things to go through at just one point in your life:
#1 You have 2 presentations (none of it memorized and one still undergoing construction at this very moment!... Yes, yes, WHAT am I doing blogging right? Someone... please, smack me) and a puppet show performance all lined up back-to-back the very next day! (yes, folks, tomorrow... TO-MOR-ROW)
#2 Due to the annoying IELTS Center which took a zillion years to send in my results to my choice of University in Canada, there was a horrible delay in receiving my Offer Letter in which I need to apply for my Visa, hence now, only 2 weeks away from my departure date, I am STILL waiting for my Visa to be approved! (is it me or do I have a knack at writing tremendously long sentences?)
#3 My finals are in exactly one week and I haven't had time to breathe let alone study (since I'm busy trying to prepare for the darn presentations and performance which decided to all pile up themselves in a single day!) which means I have only less than a week to study ALL my syllabus?!?! #4 And what about spending good quality time with the people that I am NOT going to SEE for the next 12 MONTHS??!! Don't I need some time for THAT?? And you might think we can still chat on the phone, go on Skype for call conference etc etc... but when you consider the time difference which is awkwardly different, it makes synchronizing time to catch up very difficult to do!! Sobbb!
#5 But don't get me wrong though, I do want to go, very much indeed. I mean, I swear, I WANT to feel excited, I WANT to be all thrilled and exhilarated and pumped up and all but how.. how can I? With all these things taunting my poor fragile mind and nagging at my nerves!
#6(Ho, yes. There' more) I just thought about ANOTHER thing that I almost forgot that's really getting to me too. I'm currently in the midst of making a nice scrap book for Andrew but BY GOSH!! Here's some advice: don't ever dare take TOO many pictures. Maybe, like, one for each occasion or something. I have like, a zillion, billion, ga-trillion pictures to choose from and sort out and edit and print and compiled into an album that it's possibly creating one of the largest headaches ever!!!
#7 And finally, on top of everything I've just mentioned, I have endured the worst thing that a person my age can possibly endure. I lost a friend.
So how would you feel being in my shoes?
Well, I honestly feel so many mixed feelings at once that I kinda feel rather...
Numb.
Maybe that's why I'm here. That's why I'm just blogging. I mean, I know I will eventually burn the midnight oil so what's 15 minutes of blogging, right?
As a matter of fact, I do have events to blog about but at this point in time, but I just don't have the energy to do just that. I suppose once this hectic time is over, I'll start properly blogging again.
To be honest, after tomorrow, I would probably feel a lot more weight lifted off.
But I probably won't sleep peacefully until I strike off everything that's on my list.
#7 is gonne be really, awful tough but... Well, I'll tackle that day by day somehow.
Okay, I think I'd better stop right here.
I think I'll go catch "Are You Smarter Than a 5th Grader" which is on in 10 minutes.
That show cracks me up... probably make me feel a little bit better.
Hope you all had a better day to speak off and to all, a very goodnight.
I realized that YouTube didn't allow my previous video to be played because evidently...
It was too long -.-
Well, Xanga didn't seem to have a problem with it! Jeez. Or maybe it's just me.
Anyhow, I decided to make another video myself.
In tribute of Andrew Yap,
Here is a video to relive the wonderful memories shared with such an incredible friend... (sincerely hope those of you won't mind my pilfering of your Facebook pictures)
Thanks for all you've done I've missed you for so long I can't believe you're gone You still live in me I feel you in the wind You guide me constantly
I've never knew what it was to be alone, no Cause you were always there for me You were always there waiting And I'll come home and I miss your face so Smiling down on me I close my eyes to see
And I know, you're a part of me And it's your song that sets me free I sing it while I feel I can't hold on I sing tonight cause it comforts me
I carry the things that remind me of you In loving memory of The one that was so true Your were as kind as you could be And even though you're gone You still mean the world to me
I've never knew what it was to be alone, no Cause you were always there for me You were always there waiting But now I come home and it's not the same, no It feels empty and alone I can't believe you're gone
And I know, you're a part of me And it's your song that sets me free I sing it while I feel I can't hold on I sing tonight cause it comforts me
I'm glad he set you free from sorrow I'll still love you more tomorrow And you will be here with me still
And what you did you did with feeling And You always found the meaning And you always will And you always will And you always will
And I know, you're a part of me And it's your song that sets me free I sing it while I feel I can't hold on I sing tonight cause it comforts me
To Our Darling Superman, Penguin, Tom Cruise, Little Man...
You will be deeply missed.
All that should be said, has already been said, so there's nothing much left needed to say...
However, here's something the RVNs made in memory of Andrew;
You will always be alive; in our minds, our memories, and most importantly... in our hearts.
You've fought the good fight; now you can finally rest in peace.
Here’s a quickie on Papa Ng’s Birthday celebration.
Papa’s Birthday Dinner @ Kin San Kichi, Hartamas (23rd of March, 2008)
Papa, Me & Lena.
Mummy, Aunty Ann, Uncle Brando & Papa.
Me & Muh Sis.
The food on the center of the table: (the ones we shared)
Japanese tofu thingy. I don't eat tofu so I've no idea how this was. I don't really know why I'm posting this picture since I don't know whether it's good or not... I guess you all just have to judge based on how appetizing it looks.
Sushi roll. Nothing to shout about. I don't even remember what's in it.
Unagi. I'd have to say that this was very, very, very good unagi.
Sashimi. Helluva sashimi. I could eat plates and plates of these. Really good!
Papa's Bento Set: saba fish, dumplings and sliced beef.
My Bento Set: saba fish (yummay), sashimi (YUMMAY!), sliced pork (s'okay...).
Lena and her cold soba noodles.
Just Alan.
Papa turns... well, not the age that you are guessing based on the candles! Matured people prefer not to have their ages revealed so I shall respect that.
With my beloved Papa!
HAPPYBIRTHDAYPAPANG:)
You’re getting younger and younger every year! (at heart, that is, tee hee)
I noticed how big a hit I was (not in a very good way, I’m well aware) in the previous episodes of the Bausch & Lomb TVCs so here’s the 4th and final episode posted especially for those who are in the grumps/having their period/in a horrid mood and are in need of some humor.
Hear my prayer, O Lord; let my cry for help come to you Do not hide your face from me when I am in distress. Turn your ear to me; when I call, answer me quickly.
Psalm 102:1-2
So I said: "Do not take me away, O my God, in the midst of my days; your years go on through all generations. In the beginning you laid the foundations of the earth, and the heavens are the work of your hands. They will perish, but you remain; they will all wear out like a garment. Like clothing you will change them and they will be discarded. But you remain the same, and your years will never end. The children of your servants will live in your presence; their descendants will be established before you."
